When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Your consolations delight my soul. Psalm 94:19
I shared this verse earlier today on our Facebook page. I read in Psalms daily and I know I have read that verse before, but today God brought it home for me. I have been anxious and He reminded me that He is my comfort, my consolation, my refuge.
You see, I am anxious by nature. My mind works overtime trying to figure things out, plan, predict, and prepare. As we work to prepare for opening our storefront, my anxious tendencies have been on overdrive. But this morning (and it isn’t the first time) my heavenly Father made me pause and focus on Him and His grace. And it is that grace which is sufficient to calm my anxious thoughts.
We started Mission Cup Coffee for the purpose of helping to take the gospel to the nations. To us, this has never been about achieving the “American Dream” of being wealthy or powerful. It has been about the gospel from the beginning. The way we are approaching this next phase – the opening of a storefront – is relying purely on the guidance of the Lord and His provision. Since the entire premise of the business is to help support the spread of the gospel globally – but specifically and especially in India – debt was not (and still isn’t) an option to start this business. This has caused us to really rely on His direction and provision. Walking by faith and not by sight in this way is called crazy by the world.
Not only that, but it it is scary – and that’s where the anxious thoughts multiply.
It is a constant struggle between trusting and questioning. Trusting that He will provide us with the grace to do that which He has called us to do — and questioning if this is really what He is calling us to do. But He keeps reassuring us in little ways and big ways that He has this.
So for today, because He tells me not to worry about tomorrow (Matthew 6:34), I will bask in the delight of His comfort and consolation and let my anxious thoughts fizzle away. I will do my best to walk in the obedience He has called me to walk in, and for today I will place all of my trust in the One who knows the beginning from the end.